by Nadine Spence
For a long time I have heard the calling of writing in my life, but this is the first season that God has been really specific on how and who He wants me to write too. Once I knew what my purpose was, I accepted it with the understanding that my perspective on certain things had to change. Having been hired to work for the Almighty’s Kingdom, meant that I couldn’t think, talk or act the same as I did in past. Kingdom work is a serious thing when it comes to the Father. If you work for any company, your boss is going to not only grade you based on your performance, but also hold you accountable on how you behave outside of the job. So, as happy as I felt to have this position, I also felt a level of weight on my cross, increasing daily with every obstacle I ran into and unnecessary load I felt I had to collect on my journey. I was faced with doubts of whether I could really do the work, which God had placed within me. I was already hired for eternity, so why do I feel like I should quit? As the comedian Seinfeld would say, “What is the deal?!”
In the Middle
During my freshmen year in college, ideas of becoming a writer became more real for me as I participated in a number of theatre and journalistic courses. From this, I became inspired to write a script, with hopes that one day I would find an agent and maybe even produce and direct it as a feature film. Yet like so many, the fire that was blazed with such passion soon became a dim candle put under a basket. This script was something that brought me joy and purpose, but it also took me to a place of darkness and doubt. I felt as though I wasn’t qualified to do the work and would never be successful in getting it anywhere. By taking my eye off the prize, my relationship with Jesus faltered. I struggled with my identity in Christ, leaving me to feel hopeless and stagnant in my spiritual and life growth. As a result, I ended up changing my major and graduated leaving behind my love of performing and losing faith in my future as a writer.
My solution of running away only kept me running into Jesus. God was making it very clear, that any words that came forth from His mouth, shall come to pass.
“So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.” (Isaiah 55:11, KJV)
Unlike Jonah, I had to be swallowed by the large fish more than a couple times to get that point. As a matter of fact it has taken me fifteen years of constant chastisement to remind me of the work that had to be done to fulfill His will. After so many years, I finally repented from my sin of allowing small things to distract me and using big things to excuse me. I had to ask for fifteen years worth of forgiveness, for not believing that He who began a good work in me will bring it to completion. All of this had to be done in order to end the tempting cycle of “self” and strengthen my walk on the straight and narrow to Jesus Christ.
Achieving something that you never thought you could actually fulfill can be a real game changer in your life and your relationship with God. Whatever the experience, bringing something to completion is a great feeling that renders a peace that can only come from Heaven. This is same with our Heavenly Father. When God was pleased with His creation of the Earth, He blessed it and rested on the seventh day. This is just one of Gods many works, that demonstrates how important the completion of something is to Him, because it’s who He is. Unfortunately, we get so distracted with going through the process that we can’t see the peace that comes after the work. Yes, God wants us to work; but he also wants us to rest in Him until it is done.
Am I there yet?
The answer to that question is “I’m on my way.” Fifteen years and not too much later, I am now on a mission to fulfill my job requirements and complete the good work that He began in me. You can finish your race too! As you run to the finish line ask yourself these questions:
- Do I believe that God has given me everything I need in order to fulfill what He requires of me?
- Do I believe that I am who He says I am?
Saying yes to these two truths proves that you have what it takes to do the job He has given you. If you believe that He has given you everything that you need, then I encourage you to keep your eye on the prize and know that He is waiting for you with your reward of peace at the end of your journey.
Nadine Spence has been an educator for almost 10 years and is devoted wife and mother to three children. She currently lives in Palm Beach Florida.